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As I sit here typing tonight's blog entry I am watching my mom at her computer catching up with all her friends on Facebook.

I love my mom...adore her. She has not had an easy life and like everyone else who has ever lived she has made some mistakes.  She raised three girls as a single parent, put herself through nursing school while working a full time job as a waitress.  She took charge of her life, pulled herself up by the boot straps and made something of herself.

We really bonded while we cared for my beloved Pop during the last several months of his life. Although he isn't my biological father I loved him absolutely as much as I do my dad, and he was hands down her soul mate, the love of her life. When he died a part of her died with him.

They had a big blended family, 5 daughters and 1 son, 17 grandchildren and 8 great-grandchildren...and mom is truly the glue that holds us all together. Every holiday brings us all together in her small house. It's crowded, and loud, but there's nowhere else we'd all rather be.

My mom is so much more than a mother to me, she's become one of my best friends. We can (and do) talk about everything. She's dried my tears and calmed my fears throughout our journey with Brandi's illness. Her house is Bella's second home, she spends at least two nights a week there while I work and when Brandi is in the hospital it is the only place she wants to stay.

My mom is a rock, but tonight she's scared. Tomorrow she has surgery to remove a growth on her vocal chords. We don't know if it's cancer yet, although the doctor has told us if it is she will have to get radiation treatments. The worse part of all this will be the wait, it may take up to two weeks to get the biopsy back telling us what the future holds for her.

I'm trying to not be scared, but I am. I deny it when I talk to her, but I can't imagine a world without her in it. I love my mom, I NEED my mom. I need her to be okay.

You'd think by now our family would be use to these medical bumps in the road, but we aren't. We'll get through this, by the grace of God the biopsy will come back showing no cancer, but if it doesn't our family will do what it always does...circle the wagons, search out the best doctors and do whatever we have to do to get her through this so she is once again healthy and happy.

Please remember my mother in your prayers tonight. We believe in the power of prayer and we believe that lifting a person up to God makes a difference.